So I had high hopes of coming back to post a day or so ago. You can see that it didn’t happen, and I completely forgot exactly what it was that I wanted to share with you. The funny part left me as well.
All seems quiet in the house (and as from my earlier post, we all know that this can change in the blink of an eye), dinner is in the oven, hubby is reading a book (yes, I did say reading), so I might be able to actually post.
Currently, I’m reading the book Through Gates of Splendor by Elisabeth Elliot. If you’ve never heard of it, I’ll give a little background. It’s the story of 5 missionaries to the jungles of Ecuador who set out to establish communication with an isolated tribe called the Waoranis. All five ended up losing their lives for Christ, but the story is absolutely amazing. Each widowed a wife, and several left behind very young children. I read with a highlighter handy because Elliot writes so poignantly and because much of the book is filled with the journal writings of these five amazing men. It is altogether a biography that nspires and steps on toes.
One quote from Ed McCully’s journal goes perfectly with my current situation: struggling to do what I feel I have to do and the struggle to do what I MUST, live the high calling God has given me. Ed McCully spoke of this struggle while in the jungles of Ecuador, AND he was a missionary, for goodness sake. I mean he was doing what he MUST and that was living a life totally devoted to Christ even unto leaving all behind for a forsaken jungle. In his jounral, he writes “It’s hard to keep our primary purpose in view when we get so swamped with secondary things.” TELL ME ABOUT IT ED!
This is my struggle right now. I feel as if I have go back to school, earn a paycheck, etc, etc, yet I realize that once this starts, what I MUST do and what I want to do will take a back burner (see earlier posting.)
I’ve asked God to help me order my time, give me an easy school year, and a discernment to avoid all “business” that doesn’t allow me to do what He’s called me to do. I have to say He has helped me learn to say “No, I can’t commit to that right now.” Even though sometimes, I really would like to. My constant determining question (which my husband is now adopting) has been “In the grand scheme of life, what does this really matter?” Ask yourself this question about any situation or choice and, boy, it really helps narrow things down a bit.
Anyhoo (as Rupert would say), I’ve lingered on this thought for a while and will probably continue, but Pink Lady, at least I posted 🙂